Somewhere, in all the mayhem since September, I lost it. What is it? The desire to share, the discipline to take the time to think, reflect and write, the passion to communicate, the will to stick with things.
There are many reasons why. Life has been in upheaval. September was vacation, school starting, and the beginning of the experience of being a "hockey mom". October was a month of coping with the unexpected - being the primary caregiver to both my husband and our three children as the result of my husband falling on the ice and suffering a major concussion that had him hospitalized for a week and recovering for a month, plus. November was trying to recover from the chaos - attempting to regain my sense of order, my sense of self, and my sense of all the places and roles we need to play. And December--lovely, joyous holiday month--was just more of the need to cope with everything that needed to happen, get done, and take place.
So, we've arrived in the new year - at a place and time where resolutions for change are traditional. So it seems fitting that I would resolve to return to "it". Return to being in a place and a space where I'm reflective, disciplined, passionate, and full of stick-to-it-ness. Let this serve as notice that I've got it back and that I've broken the cycle of making up reasons why I can't post anymore because it's been too long, it will be too hard to explain why it has been so long, and the millions of other excuses for not tackling it that have run around in my head since September.
Here's to having IT!
